ants

i watched this program about ants as superorganisms the other night. the colony featured on the program had built this gigantic underground network of highways which connected different rooms used to farm fungi. that’s right, the ants farmed the fungi. not only that, the ants designed their tunnels in such a way [...]

Ima Talk about JESUS!

I think I’ve decided that I can only pray on Sundays. I know that’s silly and totally against everything you’re all about – that whole always-keep-Me-in-your-hearts stuff – but I think there are people of a certain disposition who probably should take a break from you. Like, for example, me. The kind of girl who [...]

if you need me ii

i thought i’d list my signs in these prayers.  my hope was to stack my coincidences next to each other and try and figure out what you’re telling me.  but these signs you’re sending me?  pretty weak.  but then i think, “maybe god’s sending me weird and obscure signs because god know’s i’m a sucker [...]

Autopilot Prayers

God, I find it disturbing that I only pray to you in moments of extreme stress or joy and never in times of mediocrity. (I mean, like, praying in my heart, not on the world wide web) … I guess … sorry about that? It can’t really be helped since it’s such an automatic gesture [...]

if you need me, i can always be found

since i’m blogging these prayers, i should probably try and use the format to my advantage.  i mean that these prayers can be a little more focused but still allow me to try and work through my feelings about you.  so for right now i’m taking my prayer-starting points from songs that remind me of [...]

TMA 494

Alright God, you’ve got a ten minute limit here as we take a break in my cinema and religion class.
Thing is, I don’t think I should be taking this class. I’ve become worried about the idea that I may be going crazy lately. Or at least slightly crazy, because maybe questioning my entire belief system [...]

it’s sunday

so here’s my main problem with you, god.  why did you make it so hard for me to believe in you?  i mean you supposedly created all this and all us and want us to be happy and want us to return to you but then you engineer the world as well as creating me [...]

If There’s One Thing I Believe in, It’s a Golem

Alright, so I didn’t want to be the first person to address You. Clearly taking that first leap into this very huge and sometimes silly assumption goes against my cowardly nature. But now that prayer has been established and publicized, I think this could serve more of a purpose than I first considered. Yes, I [...]

is praying just a socially acceptable way of talking to yourself?

since this is the first blog-prayer some minimal explanations may be necessary. not for you, god, but for anyone else reading this. so if you exist, which right now doesn’t seem super likely, i’m assuming that you are aware of my inner life–my thoughts, anxieties, daydreams, (night)dreams, possibly my unconscious states (if those [...]